Well honestly its freaking out . Jiwa I sendiri kinda takut dengan bayang bayang . I dunno what is went wrong , perhaps the strength that he has give it to me will lead me to find the soul that I really looking into it.
I dunno if you does , but that is happen to me . Feel better to be alone. Moving ahead to setting up the first step. Its look easier but actually NOT! hell not easy .
I keep asking my self .. Am I demanding ? Or this is the real situation after so long. Even when we are living in complete denial about it.
Ya allah .. lead me to be better person .