Honestly I missed him . Miss his smile .. miss the way he treat me ... ! Its not crap ! I believe that part of growing up and becoming an adult in relationships is knowing when - and how - to let go in a war-of-strong-wills. To get out of that situation - when neither wants to be the first to attempt detente - takes a great deal of emotional maturity and not a small amount of wisdom. I'm not sure that was there. I think it could develop, but it hadn't yet ...Despite all this .. what I know the next day .. I felt sorry what were happen between us.. but for sure I would never lie to him.. I am not capable of giving him what he deserve in a relationship, even an "alternative" relationship, so, we should stop seeing each other. I think he his awesome, but I think it's impossible to be together.
When we no longer have access to the one person we knew inside and out, we tell ourselves that just having a glimpse of their life after us is all we need to move on. Sometimes, when we say that all we want is to know, all we really want is to not have to even think about it.
After all I met him again in very simple occasion that I would never thought to have a great chance to meet him again. He never changed.. but honestly I miss him . In the end, I said the truth, cliche as it may have been— it’s not you it’s me. We sat there awkwardly for a while..
So here I am, an hour later, feeling somewhat like a traitor writing about doing exactly what drives most people to seek refuge on this blog in the first place, but let it be known that no matter what side you’re on, no matter how wrong it all was anyways ~~
I know you always care
You always forgive me
You make sure everything is ok
You always tell me so...
I don't need you next to me
To know that you always around ..
cause I know you do babe !