Pesan kat pengantin!

Setiap kali wedding reception ; mesti ade buku ala ala cam lawan branch 😂. But seyes mesti ade. I dulu koboi , semuanya serah pada parents , aunties and family. Ikut je apa kehendak dan cara depa .. Budak nakal memang end up cam tu .. - dak blues -

My message always kinda ..

🎈🎈Congrats pengantin ! Moga menjadi pembimbing dan kawan tbaik untuk isteri / suami.  Insya allah bahgia selamanya bersama ! 

Bismillah - 2014 - first note

It my first write up for 2014 .

Today is day 12 of missing airplane MH370 .

Here , in these blog .. banyak sangat memori manis , memori luka yang I shared . I do write in the pieces of paper , over the status on what's app , FB ... writing is the way I express my feeling .

Today its kinda boring day . I just out of Dr Yusoff room. My blood went low again. 40/80 , which it can be collapse , its can stroke .. it can be anything ..

So I choose to relax and opened up this blog and start ...

Ikut kata hati

Parah .

Tiada yang lebih baik . 

Bosan .

Bacul sangat kehidupan .

Roda bergerak kencang . 

Sepatutnya , 

orang berbudi kita berbahasa . 

Ps : aku cuma doakan kejujuran . priority in life . 

Kau memang la memang ! 

Raya ke 6th 2013

I guess I am back to where I belong . Since 2008 I had enjoy the real raya , the real ramadhan ( hello - walaupun ye tak terawih saya masih menunaikan kewajipan saya- saya puasa ye ! ) 

But this year was very simple . No kuih raya , no baju raya ... 

Infact now I tgh keje . 

NOPE I don't miss him .. I miss the memory !

Tatta!

Behind the smile - the cheeky smile

Tetibe bila wan ( nenda) said "Awak kena kuat" ; aku cuma senyum .
I did not said anything . I never revealed anything .
Tapi bila my cousin sister said , "mesti ada sebab ,, " Aku tak senyum . Its hurt for me to repeat again and again . I had tried over the years .

Am I demanding ? Am I unfaithful ? I am not happy . That is all .
No one understand .. they can just listen and assume and summaries .

I didn't asked this thing happen . But really I am not happy .
If Im not happy after ten years , I still have to face the same thing for another ten years?

ps: I just dont understand and I dont believe until these happen..

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan ...

I did not sleep at all throught the night . My feeling not OK . Shivering , yang pasti aku sedih .
Setiap yang belaku pasti ada hikmah .
Aku kena kuat . Jangan salahkan orang lain Dina !! Terima la dengan redha - pujuk hati laraa ..
Pedih sangat hati ni .. Tapi tak dapat nak luahkan dengan kata ...
Bila sedih selain Dia , hanya my bestie yang mungkin paham , mungkin tak ... mungkin ...
Aku pujuk hati redha , pasrah dan jangan sesekali salahkan apa sekalipun . Ini dah tertulis .
Salam Ramadhan semoga hikmah ini buat aku jadi matang. Yang pasti aku tekad !

If I could turn back time ...

Oh God give me the strength !
" The crime is not to avoid failure . The crime is not to give triumph a chance ..."