Saturday, June 19, 2010

~b.i.r.t.h.d.a.y~



I am twenty-nine years old. Can you believe it? Twenty-nine! That's like practically end-twenties. I'm freaking out! I cannot believe how long I've been alive and how many things have happened to me in that time. From naughty child to golden child ~ to painfully shy adolescent ~to bad girl ~and now I'm a mother of three. I feel like I've been so many different things. I AM so many different things. I am constantly amazed at how much change and reinvention is possible in such a short span of time.

This year was cooling year me. This time last  two year year was insane, I was so freaking out , to make a decision to leave a soul company that I've attached to.
I had no idea what the hell I was doing. My job was confusing, my life was confusing, I didn't know who my friends were or how I was going to live in this alien place. Allowing myself to get close to someone for the first time. It wasn't perfect and mistakes were made, but it was the closest thing to a real relationship that I'd ever had. Attention must be paid.

I remembered , 
I moved. It took a lot of work and a lot of convincing - assuring myself that I wasn't a failure, but that I was doing something for my happiness, something that would make my life better in the long run. I came home. I fought with my hubby over apartments and life decisions and his role in my life. I thought I would never talk to him in the same way again, but I got over it. I moved on. I forgave. And here I am today, 29 years old, living in the best city - my favorite city - working in a good job, studying to take the test that will put me on the path to being what I've wanted to be for so long. I'm still growing, still learning, still changing, still discovering new facets of my personality.

You've come a long way, baby, but you've still got a ways to go. I'm looking forward to it =)
Thanks hubby for what you have done , but I'm sure this is the best ever lesson i have learn through my life ...


I don't need a present , i need your attention !

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